Bila nak siap?!....

My house have been under "seized" by the contractors for the last one and half months....the initial agremeent was '40 working days'by then renovations akan siap, well I may be poor with my maths but I can still count. My counts went on more than 5 times on my hands, it has definitely exceeded the 40 days period....the house is only 80% completed...thats alot you may say....tapi banyak lagi kerja lain yang tak siap lagi, macam to my dismay...my kitchen is still in a mess.The quotation pun berubah dua kali, hmm,asyik naik aje...argh...argh!I snapped at my contractor bila he said.."kak pintu cabinet dapur, kita baru tempah, ambil masa 2 atau tiga minggu nak siap, pintu bilik air pun sama, kena tempah ikut saiz....almari cabinet yang sedia ada tak boleh pindah lagi, tunggu pasang cabinet baru dulu....dalam pertengahan bulan Januari baru siap cabinet".....Well, that was the last straw that broke the camel's back...apa lagi, I pun berleter sikit and voiced out my frustration....and naik ke bilik cos tak boleh tengok muka dia.Tapi, the good side of me, smsed him later in the evening...minta maaf cos "mood kakak kurang sikit"..

Kerja-kerja renovation ni memang rimas....the noise tu quite bearable jugak walaupun loud...adik selalu menjerit kat the pekerja sambil cekak pinggang..."DIAM, DIAM, jangan bising la adik tak suka!"...hehe...cute adik.Tapi yang tak tahan is the endless habuk....as you know, kakak and I ada asthma....it was very difficult to avoid from getting an asthma attack with all the habuks....kesian, tengok kakak...took the kids to see their pediatrician for some measure of precautions...dapat ubat untuk satu bulan...hmm....as I said earlier, dah terlebih sebulan......ubat dah habis makan.

Hubby was (still is) very helpful, nearly every night dia mop rumah...kadang-kadang kesian jugak, especially time tengah sibuk dengan kenduri kahwin aisyah, balik malam pun, dia mop jugak rumah. Masa tu, rumah lagi teruk...penuh dengan concrete yang pecah dalam rumah...nak masuk, kena jalan area living room yang ada concrete debris....Bila hubby and I tak boleh bercuti, hantar the kids to rumah Wa, at least kat rumah Wa, budak-budak rasa lega tak ada habuk and debris dalam rumah.We are grateful to Wa and Syahira dapat jaga the kids...adik suka sangat pi rumah Wa...kadang-kadang dia ajak pi rumah Wa during the weekends...I have to divert her attention by bawa dia jalan-jalan ke tempat lain...ya lah tak kan nak kacau Wa during the weekends pulak.

Anyway, back to the renovations, banyak lagi yang nak di siap, rimas bila kichen tak siap completely....we have been spending a lot on makan-makan kat luar...budak-budak tu pulak memiih nak makan macam-macam.I missed cooking....baru semalam, dapat buat fried rice...rasa lega dah dapat masak. Itu pun lepas they have installed the new sink, sink yang lama, masih belum dibuka, tak boleh pakai....kalau pakai sikit, air tersumbat cos ada residues of simen and pasir....hmm, the workers guna sink tu untuk basuh tangan, peralatan kerja...bla, bla, tu yang tersumbat. Ada a big baldi kat bawah sink untuk air tersumbat yang asyik menitik slowly....hmm, bila ada proper running water, baru la boleh buat kerja , kalau tak geli ....I hope they would remove the old sink soon...buka and buang aje...rimas and sakit mata tengok. Am trying so had not to stress myself...as it is, I dah demam tiga kali during this whole period.... Kak bought for me some herbal colon detox, although I dont have any control over my bowels during the detoxing period, but atleast I dont have any surprises.Like I always say, when life gives you lemons, make lemonade....

One has left the nest......

Alhamdulillah everthing went well last weekend. Siti Aisyah will now tick the Madam column instead of Miss.She has now entered the statistic figures for married women. I dont know whether she had the wedding of her dreams,but I hope she was not dissapointed with the whole wedding do.

I guess every little girls have dreamt of their wedding as early as the kahwin olok-olok scene. I dont remember having any specific dreams of how my wedding would be....infact, I dont remember any fuss was made by anyone...sobs!sobs! ....all I could really remember was that it was so difficult to cari the right wedding bed. I remembered pi window shopping dengan pak, mak and kak mah (masa tu, Pak tak berapa sihat....felt very bad Pak was dragged along)... punya la susah nak cari the right bed within the budget. At last kak mah yang jumpa(?) my katil..., kak mah did my kain cadar and langsir from scratch...I didnt pick the colours....it was picked for me....I basically didnt have say in the wedding ....hmm....nevertheless I am grateful with what I had.

Well, I am just glad that the whole shebang of organising a wedding is over....as Tam had said,one down and 32 more to go...hmm, the next wedding by the way is just around the corner, 6 months to be precised....hmmm. So it will be back to the drawing block and the organiser's clips...tapi tak apa, thats what family are for...to help each other...lebih ramai lagi seronok.Maybe the next wedding akan jadi lebih senang.

I received a thank you sms from the mother of the bride...it was a heartfelt thank you from kak chick....she thanked everyone in a very personal touch...it was very sweet. I hope that she is back to "normal" now....I hope the whole wedding scenario was a sweet memory for her....marrying off your first girl must have been a combination of relief and yet quite sad, Aisya is no longer hak mutlak the parents, sekarang dah tukar geran kat Ali....aisya priorty would be a wife first....

So, one has left the nest...thirty two to go....hmmmm

Hoping for the best.......

Last week,I nearly blew my top....while delivering my "kekecewaan" during a monthly meeting, I could actually hear my voice was trembling a bit against the silence of the whole office.Now I know macam mana rasa jadi boss, the sense of dissapointment was so great...I felt so let down by them.I felt so sad that my officers and staff let me down by not performing to their level best.I felt and knew that they could do better...but the dissapointment of facing the truth was much more greater.It was a bitter pill to swallow.

Sekarang, baru I realised I should have been more "sensitive" to my bosses bila dibuat teguran.They only had the interest of the organisation at heart.I dont know whether being a daughter of Pak Wan,the expectation of being a good leader is much more higher. Pak was such a good boss,leader and manager. I have heard and read great things about him.His former officers would always say that although he was very tegas but he was also a fair boss.He had the welfare of the staff in his heart.My heart would bloomed with pride bila dengar cerita about his execellent leadership.If I have a quarter of his leadership qualities, I would be very, very grateful and blessed.

Now that I am facing numerous problems with my officers and staff,I feel quite suffocated with the whole situation. I questioned myself regularly...can I face them with full determination or will I backed down with fear....Its quite a struggle to balance everything. I dont want to be a popular boss, I want to respected for having good qualities as a person not as a boss. At times, I am so burdened with the whole situation....I feel like screaming.....infact on one occasion I nearly did.The next best thing was to talk to my other half so I smsed hubby...telling him about it...and waited patiently for zuhor prayers so that I could calm down.....

Well, I am away from the office for 4 days....I hope there would be some changes after the last meeting...I hope I have drilled in some sense of awakening in their performance....lets hope so....

Mak's soul mate

Amal gave me a link to this particular blog, it lead me to reminisce about mak and pak..the write up was sad but at the same time heart warming cos this blogger have the same problems that we are facing with mak.Her mum is also at the "in between worlds"...where mak cannot comprehend clearly on the things that are happening to her...but at the same time, appears to the "aware" of her surroundings....quite contradicting and confusing.In mak's world I seem to have 2 girls with one boy...hmm.

Last week, kak played a fast one on the whole family about mak tak nak balik ke KL cos she nak jaga kucing, ayam and itik...now about the kucing...mak has soft spot for kucing...dulu kat Sri Gombak, we had kucing yang tak dibela secara rasmi, mak bagi makan and selalu mak yang ambik tanam kucing bila kena langgar kereta...AJ selalu langgar kucing bila nak reverse kereta.Now, pasal ayam and itik...it got us worried about mak's condition cause mak tak bela ayam and itik kat Alor Setaq...

Anyway, what I want to say is that mak is going through a frightening period of her life, I can understand Kak Mah's concern bila she said to kak that she is worried that it will happen to her (in reference to kak's sms about the kucing, ayam & itik) ...I have that same notion too. Will my kids be a patient as Wa, will they be thoughtful of my feelings...I pernah pergi to One U, lepas naik escalator,couldn't remember where I parked my car, a sense of panic and anxiety crept in....and it was only just 10 minutes ago of stepping out from the car. A cold truth strucked me, kesian kat mak, she suffers these episodes on a regular basis everyday...just imagine how she must be feeling. All confused and frightened.Alone.

Bila I baca that blog tadi, I teringat balik about pak and mak when they were together. Being the second last and among the two girls yang were living with them, while the rest were raising their own families...Amal and I were fortunate to see the other side of Pak and Mak.

They were a very loving couple...I could still remember them watching the tv, with pak head cradle between mak's peha...pak gently playing with mak's fingers...they were not shy to display their affections, there were occasions when Pak will say something amusing and mak will smile,they would talk about something routine but it doesnt seem to bore them, that is marriage to me... at the back of my mind, I said to myself...alangkan bestnye dapat jadi macam tu nanti....Mak was not only his wife, she was his best friend,loving companion,matron (jaga ubat-ubat and his low fat, low salt diet for Pak)and most of all his soul mate. After Pak pencen, mak accompanied Pak to his meeting trips to Sabah and Sarawak while Pak was a Commissioner for SPA.Infact as long as I can remember, Pak always had mak with her....they went to pasar borong selayang in the wee hours of the morning to stock up the weekly or monthly supply...pi bayar bills together, makan breakfast together...makan mee jawa kat Greenwood (bawa balik 1 or 2 bungkus), pi jalan-jalan together...they had so much togetherness.It must have been a nightmare and still is for mak to lose Pak.She misses him all the time, I can see it in her eyes.I am not saying that we, the kids and grandchildren do not bring her happiness and joy but I am sure that it is not the same comfort of having a your better half with you.

(this was written about a month ago, but I just couldnt complete it for some reasons, infact banyak lagi nak ditulis but I seem to be really busy or the log would be "hilang" cos tak boleh auto save...something about connection...)

One small step at a time.....

I am trying hard to change my eating habits to a better and heathier one. For the past two weeks, after raya celebration, asyik makan salads for lunch except for the occasional lunch date..., had lunch at Nando's with Amal last friday, we had chicken burger...hmm, the chicken was roasted not fried and the bun came with some salads...so it was kinda of healthy la...hehehe and the other lunch date was with my officer...I had no choice but to jamah nasi sikit. Dont get me wrong, I am not completely cancelling nasi from my menu. I still have nasi lemak at weekends.I noticed the last time, I was only on protein diet, the kilo melted away for awhile, but it came back viciously later...much alas, I gained back all the kilos and more....sobs,sobs,sobs.....

This morning, I put on my exercise gear (bought about 7 months ago, still had the "newness" smell)tried my very best to follow the instructions on the CD...while trying my best NOT to be pancit, heard Sofia exercising her lungs up stairs....wailing for mama to be upstairs...me, trying hard not to wake up the neighbours,kata "kan ayah ada...."

She came down, saw Mama trying hard to strech and jump, went upstairs again.....later ayah came down with Sofia again, looking not too happy.....hmm, even the sight of mama in tight pants, sweating (not the sexy way...heheh)and panting did not raise an eyelid from ayah.....hmmm.

Well, the exercise session became a watching session by the kids...ayah was smoking at the corner...maybe feeling a bit sore with the kids and not with mama I hope.

So, mama tried to finish the exercises.....sebelum ayah went out to buy newspapers....tanya nak makan nasi lemak ke.....thought hard for awhile....ayah waited patiently for an answer....hehheh. minta nasi lemak ayam goreng .....heheheh...so much for exercise ya...Well, I have to give myself credit for TRYING to make a change.... ciao.

Shop till you drop..

Malaysian love to shop...why I say this, cos shopping complexes are filled to the brim with shoppers during this ramadhan month. Just last friday, I went to SOGO during my long friday break, Ya Allah, ramainye orang, sampai nak lemas.I saw some men, tersandar kat dinding and duduk dekat escalators, squashed with some kids, yang dah tak larat shopping, their mums and wives were still going strong...hands were still deep in the bargain lots.I was a bit distracted and sedih, tengok satu mamat ni, carrying a small baby...rasa-rasanye, masih dalam pantang. There was no sight of the mother. Kesiannye, rasa macam nak tolong dia aje...tapi nanti orang kata kepochi pulak.

I went with a mission to get some pants for my nephews and niece. So, I tak lah distracted dengan godaan lain. Walaupun,begitu, I treated myself to a pair of slippers...okaylah tu, tak lah balik ke office terhoyong hayang with plastic bags...nanti apa pulak kata staff. Anyway yesterday, lepas pi Immigration Dept to make I-kad for bibik with hubby, kids and of course bibik...hubby went to work lepas selesai buat kad...I left the kids at home with bibik and went out to do some last minute chores....tukar duit raya, bayar bil telefon, beli some undergarments and blouses.Adik nak pi rumah Wa, she thinks Wa is keeping or hidding TH...heheheh.Tapi bila dah balik ke rumah at 3 something...rasa penat nak keluar pulak.So, I smsed kak, kata tak jadi datang. Kesian adik,tak jadi hantar dia ke rumah Wa although Wa was very obliging on having them...

Ramai jugak orang buat last minute shopping...we did our raya shopping during the Mega Sale...saja, nak beat the crowd...tapi, seronok juga shop during the festive season....ada banyak choices. Shopping during this season,yang tak bestnye ramai orang and the queque nak membayar panjaaaaang.

Yang takut tengok, ladies shopping without any self control,I was amazed with the amount of energy that they had...tangan kiri kanan penuh dengan plastic bags...they shopped like there no tommorrow. As, for me,sadly I have to shop within a budget... kalau tak habis 'vitamin m' before the end the month. Sofia, is quite a shopaholic for a three year old, sikit-sikit cakap, jom mama pergi shopping, kalau membeli baju, siap posing lagikat cermin kedai.Hmmm, she shops macam mama and ayah dia cop duit...hehehehe.

My kids seems to think that weekends are suppose to be filled with shopping and makan-makan. The choice of food that they want to eat is sometimes quite depressing to the parents....asyik-asyik McD atau KFC. Dah rasa kembang tekak asyik makan McD.....tapi parents terpaksalah terima aje. I hope to teach them to be more adventures in their choices of food....till the next weekend's dose of shopping...ciao.

No Mills and Boons please...

Without realizing it, a week has passed by so quickly....I am still adapting to the new working environment....I have about a staff of 28 people under my care....on my first day, they were very reluctant to share any negative info about the people or the office....however the pandora box was opened on the second day...to my own amazement, I was quite calm although dark skies were above my head...well, no use crying over spilt milk.....just have to breathe hard, pull my guts in and go with the flow.I cant devulge any info on it, it would be unprofessional to do so.

Anyway,today I had some matters kat kl courts...it was lovely to see some familiar faces...tapi banyak jugak muka baru yang tak kenal.....I dapat jumpa staff lama, Raju...he still is the same....charming as ever....met some bailiffs....tak sangka they can still recognise me...hmm, maybe I have not aged much...heeheh...
Bila dah settled kerja, I buat courtesy calls on TP and PKP....saje nak kenal-kenal...it was just plain common sense untuk berkenalan with fellow officers....

Raya is just around the corner, we will be going back to Alor Setar for raya, kak kata the first omarian to arrive will receive a surprise from AJ...hmm, I hope its not penyapu, mop and bucket untuk cuci rumah.I am looking forward to see mak and tengok-tengok buku pak...rasa sayang buku pak kalau tak dijaga.Pak was always obliging in spending hard earned ringgit on books....I think I have acquire that passion for books from pak.I am willing to spend money on any form reading materials...am trying my best to cultivate good reading habits in Athira tapi I noticed, dia suka membeli tapi tak habis baca...sayang betul...tapi I tau she finished the book that Wa bought for her...katanya it was nice, she likes the characther name Ibrahim, adik kepada Ana.Katanya ceritanya kelakar.

Dulu kecik-kecik, mula baca buku Enid Blyton, by 12 years old, dah baca Mills and Boons...hmm, lets hope Athira will not start reading romance books at such tender age...I am putting some of the blame of reading romance books at such a young age on my sisters....I ikut aje.....terikut -ikut baca, bila dah mula baca, it was difficult to put the books down but now, I strongly feel little girls should be young girls as long as mother nature allows it....hmm, I cant believe I sound so ibu-ibu....well, age is definitely catching up...heheheheh.

Maybe, if I am lucky, my old collection of Enid Blytons books at Alor Setar ada lagi..

Mama, sabar ye.....

Kakak is at home today,not feeling well...she has the signs of getting her asthma again.She has been fasting diligently for the past 8 days, so kesian jugak, suruh dia jangan berpuasa today or until she gets better.My reasoning to her was, its better to miss a few days, get well fast and continue fasting than to fast and makes her condition worst.

I have noticed that now she is less degil since I kurang marah and taken the more civilised and PC approach of bercakap lembut-lembut dengan kakak.I realised that being the adult, I have to be more reasonable in my approach...and not to be too tough on her.Maybe my expectation of her is too high, she is after all a litte girl.

Talking about little girl, I think Sofia is a small kid with an old soul...things that are coming out from her mouth are on the border of being funny and ridiclous. Now, her favourite words are " sabar, sabar ye...", a typical "kakak yang buat" to the gaya MP melawat kawasan with the words "kakak ni sepah, eee...mama, kakak yang sepah...tengok tu (little fingers pointing to all directions and rolling her eyes) ...tisu sepah, buku sepah, color sepah....".

Nak tergelak pun ada, tapi I cuba buat-buat macam geram jugak...memang geram pun, cos kakak selalu sepahkan the master bedroom....this irritating habit of hers really piss me off. Lets hope, today bila balik nanti, tak lah bersepah.

Selain, menjadi a dedicated Ketua Pelapor, adik is also into sexy moves now. I cringed with embrassement..bila tengok dia menari ala-ala MTV. I guess, bibik is secrectly switching to MTV from cartoons...that's the explanation, I hope.

On that note, I told Sofia in the car last weekend that "kecik-kecik tak apa, besar nanti tak boleh macam tu"....hmm, I dont know whether the point was driven to her.

Last weekend, pi KL, beli kain untuk kenduri kahwin Siti Aisyah....the place was crowded like a ranch filled with herds of cows....susah nak bergerak.I was quite surprise that the ayah agreed to go to KL ....macam tak percaya pulak especially since it was slightly to noon...

Anyway, beli jugak kain nak buat baju, tapi bila nak buat tu tak tau la.Lets hope lepas raya nanti ada masa nak buat baju. Talking about time, susah nak manage time with unreasonable people....I wont say siapa yang unreasonable tu.

Next week, there will a whole new environment to look forward to....I kena tukar tempat kerja....lets hope it will be something positive.....anyway, I am taking this as rezeki Ramadhan....barakah....but the timing is surely lousy...tak sempat nak ajak my staff makan-makan since its fasting month....ada yang tanya,samada I asked to be transfered....HELLO?....no such thing...I DO NOT have any connections.. but I know "someone" yang ada connection...who has played the right cards....hmm..you need not know who...I believe that if you do something nasty to others, it will come back to haunt you...so beware la my "friend".....satu lagi, banyak kerja yang nak kena habis...as I have mentioned in my last posting, I have to work this weekend, so, I am totally bogged down, and they gave me only 1 week notice....itu pun, masih belum tengok the official letter, dapat a fax copy aje....only the part about my transfer aje...anyway...life has to go on...I am certain there is rahmat....although ada mixed feelings cos the responsibilities waiting....are tremendous...tapi bila lagi nak take the challenge....so, it will be a whole new game...wish me luck!

Lets have lemonade

I slogged myself through the weekend (except saturday morning till noon) cos kena finish the assignment untuk PTK, sleeping was just a dream cos I barely tidur...I practically zombied myself through the day, the night....and managed to grab a few hours of sleep in the morning.Monday was the worst....had only 2 hours of sleep,lepas to drove my self to work. I think the car drove me to work. Some concerned fellow mates, kata I nampak pucat and stress. DUH! Went through a nightmare meeting from morning till lunch, things were not going my way....some unwanted remarks were made (to me lah!), ingatkan boleh tidur during lunch but alas had a couple of friends giving me surprise visits...semua nak hantar assignment.Had to entertain a few calls pulak.....argh, tak boleh tidur lagi.So, bila balik ke rumah,after 2 hours plus driving through traffic jam and rain, after berbuka and prayer....I pun terlena dari pukul 9 lebih sampai the next morning.....ah, lega rasanye.Sebenarnya, It was not just my body yang letih, tapi my eyes were kinda of pedih also, maybe cos duk mengadap komputer aje......

My kids had taken a back seat during the weekends, kesian only ayah yang layan them...kakak asyik tanya bila mama habis kerje, so boleh jalan-jalan...adik pulak, asyik giving me the mata sedih look....tak apalah, minggu ni boleh jalan-jalan.

So, it back to routine at work....masih lagi banyak kerja yang nak dibuat....the nightmare is not over at work....sobs!sobs!sobs!...there is an important event to look forward to next week (not by choice)....lepas tu kena kerja pulak on Sunday...sobs!sobs!Agh! Help......I feel like I am trapped in a vicious cyle that doesnt want to stop......

DL masih lagi the main character in my nightmare.....argh!Lets hope,the storyline gets better by the day...wishful thinking....eh?

Oh, well, when life gives you lemons, you make lemonades.....So, cheers to lemonade...

Help......! I want to be free.....

If I have my ways with DL, I would just shoot her...but then I would be charged for murder, hmm, so how to get rid of this evil being.......hah, just another stressful creature taking a space in my mind at the moment...wish I could do something about DL. Dont ask me, who is DL, it's not relevant, just someone that you would not want to know.

Anyway, life is never a bed of roses, I realized that a long time ago, but never the same, its frustrating to be in a position that you have no control. It's no use sighing over this matter...just have to learn to adapt to stressful situation.

On a happy note, today is Friday, so, I will have the weekends to look forward to. But alas, I still have my assignment to complete....I have managed to draft three pages of mumble jumble....ah....there goes my weekend.....

Hah, so plans will only be plans, lets see whether my sanity will be the same this weekend.I dont know whether I have to do some "kung fu" kicks with my kids....kesiankan, cuti tapi tak boleh bercuti dalam erti kata sebenarnya.....so, its not merdeka for me, although we will celebrating 51st of Merdeka this weekend.

I need to shop.......

I'm at home today, took a day off to do some raya shopping for the kids while the mega sale is still on. But alas, I still have to do some work from home, was at the dinning table, working hard since early morning to finish some urgent office work ...mujur ada internet and emails, saved a lot time from making a trip to the office....Its 11.10 am I still at home, hubby took a day off from work too, tapi kena pergi kerja jugak, will be back in the afternoon,said there was a delegation from Holland yang dikena attend to...jadi tak tahulah samaada shoping trip ni will materialise.

The kids are really excited about going out...any trip out of the house..even to petronas pun they are happy. Kakak hari ni ponteng sekolah....it was quite a task to keep this shopping trip as a secret, cos kakak seems to have developed a sixth sense, she can sense that the parents nak ambil cuti...yang kesiannye, tak bawa TH sekali, takut TH penat...shopping dengan budak-budak ni memang takes a lot of energy, they will be running around,nanti ada yang menangis, throwing tantrums...I dont think TH is up to it, hmm...I dont think I'm up to it either...so, nanti hantar TH ke rumah Wa. TH will staying for a night kat rumah Wa, tapi TH dah packed everything and dah susun beg kat tanggga. Adik nampak sedih, she tried explaining this to Wa on the phone, tapi I dont think Wa quite understood it..Anyway, TH dah nak balik ke Alor Setaq....she having been saying this numerous times yang Wa (kak) will be sending her to AS.I am happy that she gets to go back...I think she misses AS, tapi I rasa she will be missing the rest in KL once she is back in AS.

Took TH for dinner semalam, she makan kuay teow, kata banyak sangat...tapi she finished everything on the plate including half of pau kaya. Pau kaya tu memang sedap, inti tak kedekut , nanti boleh beli lagi.

On another note, mak have been complaining that bibik garang sangat dengan my kids....hmm. I will definitely raise this matter with her soon. Amboi!

oh, ya, last weekend, Zalina, abang and kak zai's eldest dah bertunang. It was quite tiring tapi lega everything went smoothly except for the slight glitch in the food. The caterers came late...mujur ada kueh...anyway, as a side kick for Kak Mah(wedding planner)...I'm bracing myself for the next event...Siti Aisyah's wedding....dah dapat instructions on the theme colours..so, kena pi cari baju dark purple, maroon and lime green. Mentioned this to hubby, wah...kata dia, dia pun kena ikut tema ka? Kena pi beli baju melayu warna tiga serangkai ke? Duh! YA! Need to do some shopping......

Back to work......

Phew!Three weeks have passed in blurry state...I'm free at last from my PTK.....samada pass or not that will be another matter. We were given 2 weeks to prepare for the individual presentation. That took a lot of my time....finding the materials, reading and sorting them out....ugh! It was terrible.... public speaking, only lasted for 10 minutes...tapi kena cari materials jugak, hubby was a real gem, he helped a lot, infact he came up with the first draft...we threw ideas together and some how I managed to persuade him to prepare the draft...

Exams ?! If I could kick myself at the ass I would do so, haiya, rasa so menyesal sangat-sangat, .....dah lah tulis macam orang gila, felt so stupid for answering questions that was not comfortable with....Ahhhh, double ahhh.

The whole week, actually it was 9 days (minus registration)rasa kepala heavy aje, rasa macam kepala nak pecah, I had so many things to juggle with the preparation of PTK, before that, I had kerja yang bertindan on the table yang perlu dihabis, research untuk kurikulum kursus kena buat,....my family took a back seat. Kesian the girls...I was away from them, off and on. I cant recall how many hours I spend on reading material on global warming...I think I can safely say that I have become more global concious...hubby was really understanding. He made the effort of being home at least my 8 plus for the girls and for TH to have some adult company for dinner...

I was having a big dose of nervous gila for my presentation...I was so afraid that I did not answer the question properly, in my little mind, I had the scenario of the whole panel bombarding with me questions and saying that I have gone off the track....seriously....it became a daily nightmare features for a couple of days....I was so paranoid about it sampai I made hubby promised to me that he would be back early on tuesday night, jangan fixed any meeting, jangan buat kerja lebih, so that I could do my mock presention and he would ask questions, pretending to be the panel....tapi malam tu, both slept early with adik still awake, shaking me a few times to change the channel...in my mind, I said tak apa, baru pukul 10 lebih ada time lagi, nanti bangun, boleh practice......ya....practise, hmm, at 5 am I woke up like a headless chicken, the feeling of panic crept in, ahhh...tak jaga semalam, didnt practice my presentation....ahhh, help, ..so,did my isyak prayer, that helped to calmed me ...woke up hubby, buka computer....hubby dengan muka mengantuk, duduk kat lantai tepi katil dengar I dok bercakap dalam orang putih....adik terjaga, tengok mak dia berdiri dengan tangan goin every where....with a sleepy ayah on the lantai......., anyway abang thanks for all the help and support..., you really pulled me up when I was down.....THANKS...I really adore you.

Bila, dah habis buat presentation rasa lega sangat sangat....didnt want to think about the exams, biar aje...kalau ada rezeki, ada la, dont want it to spoilt my life thinnking about it for the next couple of months....hmm, tapi written assignment kena hantar juga....aghhh...belum habis lagi derita..heheheh.

On, the last day of PTK, I dah plan nak berseronok sikit with friends infact had blesssing from hubby to balik lewat sikit, but alas, was called up by the boss.....hmmm, so it was back to work....orang lain, masih atas katil feeling deliriously happy.....I was back at work.....work was waiting for me....argh.......

Apa-apa pun, I will miss the company of my dear Sue (my roomate), Tulip, Sal, Syed, Atok and the rest....you guys made it less painful....hehehhe.

Adik, TH and tantrum

Had a conversation with Amal this mid morning about perangai anak-anak and our concern as mothers on macam-macam perkara concerning them especially bila anak nak meningkat remaja. Amal is tearing her hair over "teenage problems" with her first borne. Nak buat macam mana, a mother is not only the nurse, welffare officer, tukang masak, counsellor and teacher of a home as we wear different types of hats. It is expected of us.

But being children, we appeared to them as a big monster, breathing heavily unto them, ...trying to distrupt their "boring life". What they fail to understand that we dont want to be monsters as it is tiring to "fight" all the time.

On that note, yesterday,took out TH for lunch at 1 Utama.Lunch lambat sikit cos ada hal kat rumah (hubby fiddled with the computer....well, it was my fault...I was having some technical problems with the LT...but its nice to blame on someone...heheheh), anyway, I ordered claypot rice for TH (selepas tanya dulu), we both had the same claypot rice...different bowl, duh!...nampak macam TH tak beberapa suka cos she gave nearly all her chicken pieces to kakak. The nasi was basically just ayam kicap with cili potong.So, I tanya TH..." mak, kenapa bagi ayam banyak sangat kat Athira"...she answered." tak apa, ada banyak...", but sounded quite upset, so I said "kalau tak sedap, boleh tukar lain, mak nak makan apa?"...silence...silence...."tak apa....".

Adik, pulak makan maggie goreng...(minta tak pedas, just telur saja) ....tapi termakan portion yang ada seketul serbuk rempah maggie...adik pun tak nak makan, pedas...dah merajuk....So, I had dua orang merajuk with me..adik pulled a tantrum on the left and TH on the right feeling tak puas hati...aaargh....mujur kakak tak buat hal...now to think about it, she was kinda extra sweet to me...hmm, pandai play up to the occasion ye. But kids being kids, adik was okay bila dapat beli roti....macam-macam dia nak makan...hmm, same goes to TH, she was happily choosing bread and pastries with the cucus.

Ok, Boss.....

It's been a week since my last posting, a lot has happened since then. I dah dapat soalan utk tugasan individu and public speaking.Tengok soalan rasanya taklah susah sangat tapi takut tak menepati sepenuhnya pulak.So I am going to attempt a general question, wish me luck cos I'm feeling very nervous about the whole thing....Anyway, this weekend, to be precise saturday, pi ke KLIUC bagi ceramah tentang Sistem Kehakiman to 500 students plus some teachers.This a workshop in preparation for the STPM examination. They had interesting questions for me during the Q & A session....yang buat nak tergelak pun ada....tapi I layan all question with the same importance.

Actually I dah buat my posting for today pagi ni, but alas...habis semua hilang..yang ada draf pun hanya one paragraph...macam dejavu saje....it has happened before...well, this time it was not Sofia's fault tapi my internet connection went kaput...haiya, sakit hati aje. So, ni, dah makan dinner...budak-budak ikut ayah pi kedai and Tok hajah (TH) terlentuk depan tv. They had nasi goreng cina and chilie crabs....tapi I had roti aje...rasa panas sikit so macam tak ada selera nak makan nasi, so while the kids are away boleh lah spend some time buat posting.

Next, I have to do some serious reading tonight, I have some articles on global warming yang kena baca, tapi tak baca-baca lagi. Its so difficult to do any work during the weekends, budak-budak selalu kacau aje....TH pulak kena bagi attention jugak...cos if I dont, then rasa guilty sangat-sangat, so, I dont know whether signing up for PTK exams was a smart move on my part. I dont think I am able to do any work or study at home...at office jangan cakap lah, kerja tak pernah habis...ada saje, sometimes kerja yang tak ada connection with my unit pun I kena buat...HELP, HELP, I need HELP...the exams is just around the corner, belum lagi study apa-apa and assignment tak buat lagi, a draft pun belum ada...HELP!

My last resort is to rope in hubby to do some research for my PI paper...hopefully, hubby boleh lah tolong sikit. Nanti ada la ganjarannya...

Adik learned a new phrase..."OK, BOSS", I tak tau kat mana adik belajar perkataan tu, ataupun sapa yang ajar adik...adik, mama pun rasa kadang-kadang bibik tu macam boss...

It sounds cute coming from adik, but not too sure it will sound the same from me....

Sofia is three...

I wrote today's posting in the afternoon, after lunch..after thinking that the rest would settle down and mama can spend some time writing. To my aghast, after writing for about 4 paragraphs or more...Sofia, came to sit beside me asking to play the Kittykat game...when I said "mama tengah buat kerja.." she didnt believe me I guess, so Sofia tekan "esc"...everything just went "poof" by a split second....all mama's jottings was just a blank page....of course mama's voice naik sikit...and the poor girl curled on the sofa with the pillow on covering her face....lepas tu I dengar..."sorry mama..." She said this a couple of times...kesian jugak, she tertekan the computer...by then I couldnt continue with the jottings....so tutup komputer, suruh Sofia naik atas....sebelum tu buat susu, pujuk dia tidur....if I am lucky, Sofia will have her afternoon nap....

So,after 2 hours later, she is asleep, ayah is asleep, tok hajah is asleep...kakak, well she is up to something....barulah I boleh....sambung.

Sofia turned three today. Yippe!!! Sofia had her birthday party yesterday, everyone was there except for Wa,Kak Chick, KDah and AJ. Wa was presented by her 2 daughters..Syu and Aye (?)..There rest of my sisters did an Elizabeth Taylor thing...yunno coming..fashionably(?) late...This is quite accepted since you cant force people to come on time...hehehe. But Wa's prescence was missed....the reluctant game planners...Syu and Syahirah....didnt abide Wa's instructions on the game plans....so I had to make do with some ridiclous inpromptu games...tapi yang seronoknye, semua dapat hadiah...menang or kalah and boleh pilih hadiah....so the children raya sakan with the hadiah...I was proud with myself for being generous with them...heheh.

Syu and Syahirah thinks I am sore with them, but alas, I wasnt, this was a stress free birthday party...although I was annoyed with them..(please note, the word "quite" is missing)....and Amal's hormones were every where.

Why, did I say it was a stress free BD, well for starters, the menu was planned" by taking into consideration of what the kids nak makan lepas tu baru fikir about the adults....so the menu was just "nuggets, coktail sausages,assorted iced cupcakes,bee hoon kicap, buah tembikai"...baru menu untuk adults..."sandwich sambal sardin and mee goreng". And yang pentingnye, tak ada wastage....

The only drama I had on this BD was when Bibik nak tukar baju adik in the afternoon, Bibik picked a white and pink flowered dress...which adik refused to wear cos, she choose the pink dress that still in the bedroom. (I showed her the new dress the nite before)..haiya, so kakak bawak turun baju, bibik pi iron...tapi Bibik pun , why la, tukar baju so awal....pukul 2 dah pakai baju BD, so mama had to pujuk Adik, not Bibik, to pakai baju biasa balik...takut kotor...she refused at first...but bila kata nanti baju Princess kotor, tak cantik..cepat-cepat dia tarik dari badan sampai stucked at the head. The key words were " baju princess!"

So, all went well, just mama sakit kaki, well tapak kaki to be precised...ya, I know it the weight thing...Kakak dapat dua hadiah that mama beli cos I know she would be jealous kalau only adik dapat hadiah....a DIY glittering jewellery box and lip gloss...for adik, mama gave a fairy dress kit...with the wings, wand, hair band...blah, blah...which was difficult to keep it away from her, cos beli 1 week from the party...with her at Toy r'us...susah betul tak nak bagi dia bukak present tu...she even mentioned this to Wa, when Wa came to take TH to hospital...cos Wa said about ...adik kata something about baju princess...Oh ya,lipgloss dengan princess tales DVD.

She showed Mak lang the baju fairy and siap berjalan dengan kasut tinggi (Callie gave a princess set) when mak lang came today to visit TH.Mak Lang suggested hantar adik belajar ballet...and she proceeded to demonstrate some ballet steps...not Sofia but mak lang....

So, now that she three, will the tantrums be worse....now that another story all together. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADIK SOFIA...

Seriously, kak

I have kak to blame for having this image of mak on the motorbike with hubby embedded in my head....kak posed this question to me via sms.."esok boleh tumpang mak ngan Zubir when he comes to sj.Ada extra helmet?"....so, I replied.."kak u got 2 be kidding"...this was her response..."serious talk.Am scared of the junction to ur place.Any other entry?"....with that response,I called her up immediately, you cant sms on this sort of thing, I was really curious, is this for real....I said you cant be serious...she laughed and said something about making my day more liveir....ya, you nearly gave me a serious case of nervousness...and now I am left with image of mak clinging on to the back handle cos she would be too segan to hold on to the son in- law. And Hubby's bike is kinda of big...jenis yang tinggi,its a " men's bike to soothe the ego of a not too young - early forties man" .... so mak have to tongek sikit....what a sight and what an image...and I have kak to blame for this....So to kak, seriously, what were you thinking.Anyway, It was a good one kak..

In my last posting, I wrote about Amal screaming at the kids (for organising games for birthday party)...she called up to say, " so you think I macam mak tiri lah...." well, I stand corrected, what I meant to say is that she will be screaming at the kids cos they will be annoying her....or is that the other way round....heheheh.

On that point, smsed Syuhaida about asking her to put on the the party games planner's hat in replaced of her mum. She has to plan games for children below 10, the offer was non negotiable and I wished her good luck. Her response was " consultant fee is expensive and its non negotiable...hmm as a lawyer I would advise her to be very careful, lawyers are known be notorious in getting their ways....hehehehhe.

So, cant wait for Saturday...it's not so much of the party, its more of getting together for makan makan and maybe a bit of healthy dose of gossip...

p.s Amal is on cloud nine...Airrel (betul ke spelling) will be here,at Maju Junction on the 16th August....hmm must be grinning from ear to ear till then....another sick cow!

ha.....adik tahu....

Adik is up to something....lately she has been saying....ha, adik tahu....with one little finger placed at the bottom of her lips....macam Austin Powers....terlupa, betul ke nama? Dengan muka cheekyne....maybe I should take a snap shot of her doing it...I rememmbered, Syahirah saying that little kids know the answers to the universe (sampai umur berapa?)So, do you think adik has the anwers?

Well, one thing for sure, she knows bila mama naik ke atas...mama is going to read her mags....so she also sibuk naik ke atas kacau mama, bila kita nak tengok cds, dia pun sibuk cari cd Barneylah, Princess, Barbie....bila mama buka computer, dia pun sibuk mengacau, nak main Barbie games la.....or bila mama and ayah ada kat atas dua orang aje....she pun akan ketuk pintu....hmm...adik tahu...

Anyway, Sofia's 3rd birthday is coming...planing to have a birthday party this weekend for her but alas Wa will not be around.So, how to have a party without the party's games planner....maybe I'll ask Amal or hubby to handle the games...Hmm, not a good plan, I can imagine Amal will be screaming at the kids......and hubby will have the rokok sticking out at his lips while "playing" with the kids...not healthy at all....for both parties.

Tak apa lah, yang pentingnye, the parents makan-makan with TH, and the kids bising kat luar....buat apa-apa je la.

Tok Hajah is back.....

Tok Hajah is back......went to Kak's house to ambik Tok Hajah (TH) this morning....kids were very excited to have her with us. Syu was asleep, so TH woke her up from her beauty sleep. Kak dah pi ke Penang for some official matter.Anyway, we had lunch at Syed, TH makan nasi beriani dengan the kids, hubby and me, makan nasi putih....trying hard to restrain ourselves from heavy stuffs....tapi makan jugak ayam goreng, daging masak hitam mamak....blah, blah.Kakak tak larat makan kononnya.....adik makan sikit aje...lepas tu, adik makan ais kacang.TH dah tak larat nak makan lagi, so we bungkus ABC for her....Harga ABC dah naik, satu cost RM4.

Kakak pulled an ugly tantrum, she insisted on buying a Hannah Montana mag.....its was quite costly....lagi pun she doesnt know how to jaga her stuffs....so I refused, so all the way back from Kelana Jaya to home asyik menangis. Bukannya tak bagi dia baca mags...infact I memang encourage her to read by buying Enid Blyton books, High School Musical books and other stuffs tapi she has this habit of baca sekejap aje.Lepas tu, buku tu dicampak merata-rata. So adik and TH kesian kat kakak....mama and ayah pun membebel dalam kereta, well it was like, mama yang membebel... hubby and me were sticking to our principles.....tough love is pretty hard.

TH kata tak apa nanti boleh beli.....hmm, they can get their way with TH....maybe grandparents are made that way by God....they are the good and loving angels and the parents are the evil monsters....heheheh.

Anyway, Sofia pandai ambik hati TH, asyik kata "sayang tok".......dulu, sofia panggil TH....achik...which kinda of cute bila dengar....TH dah jadi muda pulak. Hope TH is staying lama sikit this time, the kids adore her....hubby suka mak is around, cos' I tak kacau dia, he can read the papers in peace.....as for me, I just need to have my mak ....

Happy Birthday Abang Jit

Happy Birthday Abang Jit.....Its paman's 44th Birthday today. The old dog is getting older...(huh, duh?). Amal called me up, precisely 11 days ago, tanya whether it was abang jit's birthday on the 1st July....We are both very confused sisters.....anyway, later in the week...I think it was last Sunday, I reminded her, abg jit's birthday is on the 11th July. So, semalam I dah fikir nak hantar birthday wish early in the morning. Kak Zah hantar " soft reminder" abt AJ's bday this morning, I think it was about 5.30am, mujur dah bangun. Amal, what's with this soft reminder....must wish softly huh....just kidding. Anyway, called up beloved bro about 4 times this morning, tak jawab-jawab....so bila dah sampai ke office, he returned my call....as usual I sang Happy Birthday to him and wished him....tanya kenapa tak jawab talifon , I just want to wish you, he said "tengah tidur...hari ni bangun lewat sikit."..said "tak kerja ke"....replied "hari ni jumaat" ...."oh, ya, jumaat cuti".....so tidur lambat lah, he chuckled...I knew this conversation was getting somewhere else..."so got your present last nite lah"....."ya" more chuckles.........sick cow....too much for little sister to handle.



Anyway AJ, have a wonderful birthday .....

Romance, men and chocolates.......

I am a real sucker for romance. I love romantic comedies.....I adore love novels...I would read the same book for a few times....watch the same movie (cds/dvds) again and again. Hubby is not too keen about watching anything romantic....he is into action or comedy movies. Masa tengah berdating tu, he indulged in my 'hobby'. I think just to keep me happy. Masa mengandung kakak, I watched Kuch Kuch Kota Hai 4 times. The first time, tak ada subtitles tapi faham jugak, lepas tu my dear staff beli yang ada subtitles English and BM.....bawled my eyes....because dah faham ...it got so bad....hubby warned me not to be so emotional as this will upset the baby....It must have been quite a sight for him, to see the wife baring mengiring dengan perut yang besar.....duk sosek, sosek tengok Shah Rukh Khan and Kajol dengan mata dah sembam.

On the same topic, this month, managed to watch three new movies ( to me they are new)...27 Dresses, Made of Honour and Definitely, MAYBE. Seperti biasa, air mata menitik.....sosek sosek sorang-sorang atas katil. Kids dah tidur and hubby kat bawah baca paper. Melayan perasaan sorang-sorang. I actually enjoy this ME TIME.....I feel that this is an escapism from all the stressful stuffs at work....the kids are fine when they are playing on their own or keeping quiet....but mama needs her sanity...Hubby gets romantic on his own terms and sometimes at the most unappropriate places and time...hmmm....shall not indulge any info on that.

But then I am not complaining, romance to me is having someone to cook for you when you are not well, urut belakang when you feel so bloated....accepting all my weakness and appreciates me with the occasional compliments. Hubby gave me a birthday card with the words..."I know I am not a prefect husband....", well, I am not a prefect wife...infact I dont want a perfect hubby. But how I desperately wish hubby will stop smoking.....wishful wish eh?

This brings me back to romantic movies.....Its lovely to lose yourselves for 2 hours in a make believe world full of sugary sweet dialogues.....but give me the real thing....the extra kaki to keep my feet warm, the occasional pinch in the bumbs and hugs....Anyway, today masa I tengok Made for Honour.....I couldnt help but make comparison of Patrick Dempsey's character in the movie and of Dr.McDreamy......Haiya, why, why men are so stupid....they dont know what they want, I thought they think with their heads and not their hearts.....but in some cases, I think they dont think with either one ....heeheh... As usual, the hero doesnt know what is missing until he nearly losses it all.....same goes with this McDreamy and Lexie's off and on affair...kadang kadang buat sakit hati aje. Sabar ajela. Baik makan chocolate.....I will feel much more happier!

Another one....

Another wedding on the way.....Last sunday, the whole family was invited to Kak Zai's house. Brought along my Y chromosome and kids. Amal called up to ask whether hubby was coming, then Kak Chick called to ask about the same matter....it seems Abang Chick needs some masculine companion. Kalau tak ada he doesnt want come for the gathering. Was expecting abang to be around....tapi tak ada. He is still in Mymmar.

So bila sampai aje, Kak Zai ajak makan makan. The spread ada bee hoon goreng, pulut udang, roti jala, gulai ayam and one of my favourite dessert...bread pudding. Oh ya before makan makan, distributed sofia's birthday invitation. Bila dah makan, barulah Kak Zai bukak mulut....Zalina, the eldest nak bertunang.

The conversation started on barang hantaran yang nak di beri and flowed to other things. The funny thing about this family is that we can talk n talk n talk.....from the latest gossip, the present political scenario....and blah, blah...I have the tendency of drifting from one topic to another without realising....oh wait, I do realise but what the heck...hehehhe.

The engagement will be on 24th August. We covered on what to do, colour scheme, flower arrangements....the whole works. I nak bagi chocolates... its the safest item cos boleh beli awal and tak payah risau sangat. The only thing to fikir is whether the bekas should be kayu, gelas or rotan. Well, there's more than a month to go....hmmm maybe next engagement planning will be for Syuhaida. Heard she is chummy with an italian guy. Cioa....

Mama supir Bibik

After my first attempt of blogging yesterday,I realised that there was an error about the date and time....so called up my consultant....duh!I didnt realised that I was suppose to change the time zone.....double duh! Anyway, before that, I struggle once again nak cari my blog....it was not listed....I thought boleh buka from my email...duh again.I am definitely still buta IT.

Anyway, yesterday was the usual family affair.Weekends selalu keluar makan-makan. Kali ni makan makan at Block Q, Jalan Ipoh. My initial plan was to go to Abang Pan's kenduri, tapi tak boleh since I dah buat appointment dengan Kak Mah Urut.The urut session starts at 3pm....tahulah traffic situation kat KL ni, kalau from Shah Alam to Ampang then to Batu Caves....mesti gila punye. Anyway, lunch was lovely...makan ikan bakar. Kakak had daging goreng kicap with lala goreng lada, hubby makan ikan bakar semilang,dalca daging....usually hubby makan banyak ulam, tapi semalam tak ambik ulam.I had ikan cencaru sumbat with begedil and shared my ulam pegaga with hubby. So lepas makan makan, pi ke Tesco extra...cari goodies for Sofia's birthday.

Then it was off to Kak Mah Urut, the urut session was sakit as usual...she said'urat keras sangat....'. Tried to silang my ankles....was told off...to keep still....hello, pain la. Anyway, masa awal awal dah cakap nak urut for 1 hour aje instead of the usual 2 hours....tapi it went on for one and half hours... Body was aching like mad, the perut was so tender....tapi the body felt a bit lighter. Engkau dah kurus sikit ye....kak mah said...my hubby gelak bila I shared this with him.As always,he is my No.1 Motivator (?!)

Lupa nak cakap, hubby took the girls to Giant Batu Caves while waiting for me....they pau their ayah as usual.Chips la, gula gula and ice cream.I think they got this pau thing from hubby cos mama selalu kena pau dengan ayah....heheheh pau manja aje.....

Had nasi lemak this morning for breakfast, percaya tak I couldnt really sleep...asyik pikir abt nasi lemak.Bukan sedap sangat, tapi lapar punya hal, terbawa bawa dalam mimpi.Dinner was just squiggles for me and kakak. Hubby makan kek pisang. Both rasa macam nak demam....so lucky hubby tak nak makan nasi. Kesian kakak,she asked kita makan apa untuk dinner....surprise...surprise...makan roti aje kakak. I think she needs to lose some weight anyway.

So, pagi pagi tak tadi, well, not so pagi la, about 8 am, pi beli nasi lemak with Bibik. Bibik tengah cuci kereta....ajak dia ikut sekali, the girls was upstairs with ayah...yang masih tidur. Saja tak nak bawa the girls...nak pi beli papers and nasi lemak aje. Guess what, bibik duduk kat belakang...sorang sorang...suruh duduk kat depan, she refused....hmmm, now I am the supir to Bibik... dia pulak jadi Maam.

Phew, at last...

Due to my buta IT, I have been bugging a lot of people....hubby, sister and practical students....sorry Farah and Fida ....on how to start a blog. So my dearest lil' sister, Amal created one for me. 'Consultation' was done on the phone.... and phew! it was difficult to cari the right name, password....blah...blah, since semua benda yang ada connection with me, was already taken.So tak bolehlah mama bear, cup cakes and even Cippa....a name coined by my dearest Kak Dah which I am stucked with. Being the second youngest from a family of nine, I am supposed to be called 'chik' or makcik but somehow tertukar to Cippa....but I'm not complaining....its much better than Chipmunk.

Anyway, woke up this morning feeling teruja- yup learned a new word, nak buka my new blog. Hubby was kind enough to ambil his laptop.....cuba buka tapi tak boleh. Had to call my consultant, she went through the whole stuff of...'open this....do that....type this' bla blah blah.....and reminder me...the consultation fee dah bertambah.

While tengah dok menulis ni, the kids pun sibuk nak main princess- barbie, so kena pasang the other laptop....the youngest practically screaming into my left ear...adik nak barbie princess mama, adik nak barbie princess mama.....on and on.....hubby kacau me by trying to guna belking on this laptop....haiya...tak boleh and nearly terpadam what I have written earlier. He had the cheek to say, 'now I know where the eldest got her wailing from .....'. Yeah, blame the mother...the father has more flaws and flauts than the mother......hehheheh!

I dont know how long I would be able to blog to today...Sofia is already saying ' dah la mama' and disturbing kakak since kakak is playing games on her own. Kakak has territorial issues....she doesnt like to share..... So adik asyik kata...mama gatal, ayah nak tukar pampers.....oops...bukan mama gatal....tapi adik gatal la.....Hmm have to extra careful, nanti tersilap type pulak.

So, enough for now.....before hubby tak larat layan the kids.....before kakak berlawan with adik and before Bibik tarik muka......now bibik, that another chapter of stories to tell....

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