Its been ages...

Hello! Its been ages... so many things have happened. So many things to say... but I think I will keep things to myself for the moment.😉

I am learning to let go of things that are beyond my control..... its not easy, taking small baby steps... but I will try my very best...

2014 was a crazy year. 2015 its already in its mids, I don't know what to expect, sincerely hope and pray that it will be nice to me 😊

Roti capati

My mind is making me irritated at the moment..it cannot stop  thinking of roti capati the whole day long..constantly thinking of it...how can a flat bread dipped in dhall curry with black beef curry is taking a huge portion of my thoughts and controlling my mind?

 

Capati, capati, capati ....

 

Nite..nite xoxo

 

DEAR BB,

ONE WORD...STRESS...CUTI MACAM TAK CUTI.

NITE NITE

Have a productive day

Its ridicously cold here...I am wrapped in my pashmina, trying to do my daily work..and I cant even feel my fingers..so, what do I do? Resort to warming up my fingers by tapping on the keypads..ahh...I wish I can be at home, curled up on my bed with a good book to read...oh la la. That would be heaven on earth. Instead I stucked in the daily routine of work...trying my upmost best to clear the files on my table...so that they would not be blocking my views.. I wish someone in the admin or in the air cond control room has the decency to do something about this temperature..its supposed to be centralised air cond..so I can imagine, I am not the only one freezing here...ahhhhh. So, If I am not able to perform to usual my tip top standards...hmmm...I take no responsibility for that. Thank you...have a productive day.

I wonder whether I have the right to say the things that I feel, want and need. I realised in the hard way, sometimes the closest people around you do not think or share the same thoughts like you do. I guess if I do not have the avenues to speak, to be honest with myself, I shall just lie still in pain, let others do the talking for me...but they cant never feel my pain.

If I need to cry, I will cry on my own. If I feel pain, I shall treat it on my own. If I feel lost, I will have to find the way home..it will always be on my own...I guess I can only depend on myself..

Constantly

BB,

It was a tiring and a trying day for me today. Quite honestly, when the pain becomes too bad, you tend to be numb. And I was in a state of numb the whole day. Have to be reminded constantly of my nawaitu and my faith. Constantly.

Ohhh...its so coooooold

Dear BB,

The weather is rather gloomy in P, the air cond is super duper cold...my hands are freezing..but yours truly managed to be quite productive today. Good for me eh?!


Love always,

Me.