Friday, August 29, 2008

Help......! I want to be free.....

If I have my ways with DL, I would just shoot her...but then I would be charged for murder, hmm, so how to get rid of this evil being.......hah, just another stressful creature taking a space in my mind at the moment...wish I could do something about DL. Dont ask me, who is DL, it's not relevant, just someone that you would not want to know.

Anyway, life is never a bed of roses, I realized that a long time ago, but never the same, its frustrating to be in a position that you have no control. It's no use sighing over this matter...just have to learn to adapt to stressful situation.

On a happy note, today is Friday, so, I will have the weekends to look forward to. But alas, I still have my assignment to complete....I have managed to draft three pages of mumble jumble....ah....there goes my weekend.....

Hah, so plans will only be plans, lets see whether my sanity will be the same this weekend.I dont know whether I have to do some "kung fu" kicks with my kids....kesiankan, cuti tapi tak boleh bercuti dalam erti kata sebenarnya.....so, its not merdeka for me, although we will celebrating 51st of Merdeka this weekend.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

I need to shop.......

I'm at home today, took a day off to do some raya shopping for the kids while the mega sale is still on. But alas, I still have to do some work from home, was at the dinning table, working hard since early morning to finish some urgent office work ...mujur ada internet and emails, saved a lot time from making a trip to the office....Its 11.10 am I still at home, hubby took a day off from work too, tapi kena pergi kerja jugak, will be back in the afternoon,said there was a delegation from Holland yang dikena attend to...jadi tak tahulah samaada shoping trip ni will materialise.

The kids are really excited about going out...any trip out of the house..even to petronas pun they are happy. Kakak hari ni ponteng sekolah....it was quite a task to keep this shopping trip as a secret, cos kakak seems to have developed a sixth sense, she can sense that the parents nak ambil cuti...yang kesiannye, tak bawa TH sekali, takut TH penat...shopping dengan budak-budak ni memang takes a lot of energy, they will be running around,nanti ada yang menangis, throwing tantrums...I dont think TH is up to it, hmm...I dont think I'm up to it either...so, nanti hantar TH ke rumah Wa. TH will staying for a night kat rumah Wa, tapi TH dah packed everything and dah susun beg kat tanggga. Adik nampak sedih, she tried explaining this to Wa on the phone, tapi I dont think Wa quite understood it..Anyway, TH dah nak balik ke Alor Setaq....she having been saying this numerous times yang Wa (kak) will be sending her to AS.I am happy that she gets to go back...I think she misses AS, tapi I rasa she will be missing the rest in KL once she is back in AS.

Took TH for dinner semalam, she makan kuay teow, kata banyak sangat...tapi she finished everything on the plate including half of pau kaya. Pau kaya tu memang sedap, inti tak kedekut , nanti boleh beli lagi.

On another note, mak have been complaining that bibik garang sangat dengan my kids....hmm. I will definitely raise this matter with her soon. Amboi!

oh, ya, last weekend, Zalina, abang and kak zai's eldest dah bertunang. It was quite tiring tapi lega everything went smoothly except for the slight glitch in the food. The caterers came late...mujur ada kueh...anyway, as a side kick for Kak Mah(wedding planner)...I'm bracing myself for the next event...Siti Aisyah's wedding....dah dapat instructions on the theme colours..so, kena pi cari baju dark purple, maroon and lime green. Mentioned this to hubby, wah...kata dia, dia pun kena ikut tema ka? Kena pi beli baju melayu warna tiga serangkai ke? Duh! YA! Need to do some shopping......

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Back to work......

Phew!Three weeks have passed in blurry state...I'm free at last from my PTK.....samada pass or not that will be another matter. We were given 2 weeks to prepare for the individual presentation. That took a lot of my time....finding the materials, reading and sorting them out....ugh! It was terrible.... public speaking, only lasted for 10 minutes...tapi kena cari materials jugak, hubby was a real gem, he helped a lot, infact he came up with the first draft...we threw ideas together and some how I managed to persuade him to prepare the draft...

Exams ?! If I could kick myself at the ass I would do so, haiya, rasa so menyesal sangat-sangat, .....dah lah tulis macam orang gila, felt so stupid for answering questions that was not comfortable with....Ahhhh, double ahhh.

The whole week, actually it was 9 days (minus registration)rasa kepala heavy aje, rasa macam kepala nak pecah, I had so many things to juggle with the preparation of PTK, before that, I had kerja yang bertindan on the table yang perlu dihabis, research untuk kurikulum kursus kena buat,....my family took a back seat. Kesian the girls...I was away from them, off and on. I cant recall how many hours I spend on reading material on global warming...I think I can safely say that I have become more global concious...hubby was really understanding. He made the effort of being home at least my 8 plus for the girls and for TH to have some adult company for dinner...

I was having a big dose of nervous gila for my presentation...I was so afraid that I did not answer the question properly, in my little mind, I had the scenario of the whole panel bombarding with me questions and saying that I have gone off the track....seriously....it became a daily nightmare features for a couple of days....I was so paranoid about it sampai I made hubby promised to me that he would be back early on tuesday night, jangan fixed any meeting, jangan buat kerja lebih, so that I could do my mock presention and he would ask questions, pretending to be the panel....tapi malam tu, both slept early with adik still awake, shaking me a few times to change the channel...in my mind, I said tak apa, baru pukul 10 lebih ada time lagi, nanti bangun, boleh practice......ya....practise, hmm, at 5 am I woke up like a headless chicken, the feeling of panic crept in, ahhh...tak jaga semalam, didnt practice my presentation....ahhh, help, ..so,did my isyak prayer, that helped to calmed me ...woke up hubby, buka computer....hubby dengan muka mengantuk, duduk kat lantai tepi katil dengar I dok bercakap dalam orang putih....adik terjaga, tengok mak dia berdiri dengan tangan goin every where....with a sleepy ayah on the lantai......., anyway abang thanks for all the help and support..., you really pulled me up when I was down.....THANKS...I really adore you.

Bila, dah habis buat presentation rasa lega sangat sangat....didnt want to think about the exams, biar aje...kalau ada rezeki, ada la, dont want it to spoilt my life thinnking about it for the next couple of months....hmm, tapi written assignment kena hantar juga....aghhh...belum habis lagi derita..heheheh.

On, the last day of PTK, I dah plan nak berseronok sikit with friends infact had blesssing from hubby to balik lewat sikit, but alas, was called up by the boss.....hmmm, so it was back to work....orang lain, masih atas katil feeling deliriously happy.....I was back at work.....work was waiting for me....argh.......

Apa-apa pun, I will miss the company of my dear Sue (my roomate), Tulip, Sal, Syed, Atok and the rest....you guys made it less painful....hehehhe.