Say it.

I have said it once, I have said a couple of times, I will continue to say it all the time.

Just say it.

Just love

Birthdays comes and goes. Although you pretend that its not a big thing, nevertheless, its lovely to be reminded and remembered. So, mine went with the usual birthday wishes from family especially my sisters. Kak Zah smsed me on the dot of midnight...hmm, I hope she was up doing something else more worth while..hehhe. Hubby as usual would wish me on the eve  and the morning of my birthday.

The children were their usual self...their birthday is more important than mine..no birthday cards, no birthday cake, no gifts..just a birthday wish. They seemed to be more excited with their aunts and cousins' birthdays. The same goes with the ayah, I am still waiting for last year's gift that he promised. Que sera sera..hubby knows that I have never asked for anything..and will not start doing so. A gift can come in many forms...having a supportive, understanding  and caring hubby is enough for me. What we have can be quite peculiar to others but special to us.

On that note, hubby was so kind to spend my birthday celebrating another person's belated birthday. And on that note also, it was lovely to received a small bouquet of flowers from a friend that I have made in RIFC, sharing a common interest in RI. I was so touched and was quite weepy. I have always loved flowers and as hubby had correctly remembered, the last bouquet that I received was in 2002. Remember to count and be grateful of the blessings  that is bestowed on you.

Just love and you shall be loved :)

Straight ride.

Surprising although I had a back to back meeting yesterday. I managed to vet through 6 procurement agreements. I took my documents along with me...and quietly was in a world of own. I  know it is not an "appropriate" act on my part, but hey, my "presence" was not required. There were non legal issues. Anyway, the meetings were longggggggggg.Enough time to drive to Malacca, jalan-jalan and makan-makan with a bit of shopping on the side and drive back.

So lets hope today, there will not be any journey on the side..and hoping for smooth straight road ahead.

Taking a page at a time.

Its wet and cold today. I hope today's weather will not determine the sort of day that I am going to have today. Yesterday was quite blurry, head was throbbing with headache..physically I was a wreck. Today? Not too sure...I do know for a certain I have 2 long meetings that are back to back. Morning till evening...ahh, If only I could rest at home with a favourite book. Another page of my life.

it will get better....

Que sera sera...today I will just go with the flow. If I get irritated or upset, I will do my very best to shrug it off. If the person that I am talking does not give a #@&* of what I have to say, then I will smile  and nod...What matters is that keep on going until the view gets much better :)

boo hoo

Am in a emotional mess. I am seeing and reading through teary eyes. Even watching a teen bopper on the screen also makes me cry. Is this normal or its just hormonal?

hmmm.....

Being away from the family is NO FUN. Especially being away from my kids. Especially if its a working trip. And the mood doesn't help also. I have been under  black clouds for the past few weeks. I have not feeling up to anything. I don't know why, but cant seem to shake off the sadness and the self esteem is so low at the moment. I seemed to have lost the sparkle. Being a room with the laptop and the tv is not helping to lighten the feeling. I have watched 3 movies, on the tv and on my laptop....ahhh...I am so so bored. I seriously need to get out from this self loathing mood.