Twilight zone

I gave birth to two girls but I have three kids...go figure.

A conversation with hubby while going down the escalator today..."we have two kids, dua-dua girls...macam mana tu...what if their husbands tak mau kita...depa hantar kita kat old folks home...."...Hubby replied " I dont know".End of conversation.Hmm, twilight years or twilight zone...

Note to hubby:
Thanks for saying, three of my baju tidur dah shrunk...walaupun hakikatnya,berat badan dah bertambah, bagai dipam-pam.To Dr.Hew,although I mengaku makan biskut raya, yang tak habis-habis tu, tapi, ubat Dr Hafiz yang buat I bertambah bulat..so dont bother with the lipid test on the 3rd.......

Stage one....

Four stages of planning

1.Think & Plan
2.Plan
3.Drawing board
4.Execution

Still at stage one.....

Something naughty....

I want to do something NAUGHTY...hehe deliciously naughty....something within the legal and morally right scope....hmm but still something naughty.Hmm, this will take some planning...cant wait...hehheh.

Hmmm.....

Had a marathon session of Grey's Anatomy.Sofia must have been annoyed with me, she peed once on the bedroom floor and the other on the bed.Cant be mad with her...mama was too engrossed with GA.Kakak was not much of a help...she cried bila told her to sleep in her room. Me, I was not oblivious to my surroundings but was just eager to have some ME TIME. After all, my mind nearly went kaput during the weekdays and I was looking really forward for the weekends.Anyway I took them to watch a movie this morning...something about cloudy...with meatballs. I tak ingat title...but the movie was FUN. And because nak tengok movie, mak is with kak now.Mak's condition is not looking too good...its quite bad...Athira is quite scared of her Tok now.I did not realise that she has been confiding with her Ayah...maybe cos she does not want to upset me.Cant really register in mind what mak is going through now...all I know that I nearly had a panic attack on Monday on the way home...I was SO AFRAID that I was going to fall asleep at the wheels, I was really trying hard to keep my eyes open...pinched the cheeks, slap the face...letak minyak angin kat temple...kat hidung...rasa kepala ringan macam nak melayang.Maybe I exerted myself on the first day balik ke kerja.At the back of my mind was I hearing myself telling myself to keep awake. The vertigo kept me company this week, but its getting better, told myself to ignore small episodes of giddiness. Dr. H said it might last for three weeks, well, am in third week now, so when is it going to stop completely for a start.On Wednesday ke Thursday, tak ingat had to call Zubir while driving just to keep me awake. The whole week was quite an adventure..workwise, jangan tanya, macam-macam hal..rasa macam my unit ni asyik kena refer bila ada problem aje..sebelum buat tak berapa nak dengar, lepas to come running with their tail in between the legs for help. Hmm, ...anyway, Saturday was crawling too slowly to me, the weekdays was just not fast enough....and now Sunday will be over too soon.

A dose of reality...

I have been house bound for the last 10 days and will be back to work tomorrow.FYI, I have been having episodes of vertigo due to stress and early signs of Meniere Disease..hmm, stress related...hmm, so what is not stressful?...heheheh. Am also sensitive to the high level of noises...so, whats new...with two young kids trying to out do each other in everything from the control which channel to watch, what food to eat...blah..blah..high irritating screams are to be expected.

I have an early discussion with a legal adviser from "X Co" scheduled at 8.30am tomorrow, an appointment that was made earlier and later informed while I was away on mc...and fixed early in the morning since I have another meeting at 9pm.Discussion for half an hour cukup ke? I dont like to rush matters, especially after being away for a week,mesti nak tengok-tengok apa atas meja dulu...lepas tu nak lari pi meeting lain pulak. Pandai-pandai lepa ni buat appointment tak tanya orang dulu.Sweet!Real sweet!

Well, so it's back to routine tomorrow. Hope to get my new episodes of Grey's Anatomy from Syu SOON,even bought myself an external hard drive for it....it would be a bliss.That's what the doctor prescibed..a dose of happy medicine for the sick patient...hehehe.

Burnt toast...

Three days at home, five days including the weekends.Was given five days of MC, told to rest at home.I have two more days of MC and a followed up check on Friday.Rest at home?It would have been fine, if it was really resting at home.It would have been fine, if I could drive and jalan-jalan sikit...maybe pi MPH ke or watch a movie. But, oh no...it's house arrest (yup, not a rest but arrest)for me.No driving.Its just me with the kids, bibik,mak, tv and bed.Kakak made up some excuses on Monday, tak pi sekolah..she thinks I am going to berjalan-jalan with adik. Tuesday and today, tak pi sekolah agama...konon nak study for final term...hmm.Both my kids are no angels...when they are together...the house is filled with maximum noise.Sakit telinga and sakit hati pun ada jugak.My little girl pun tak nak pi tadika...asyik tengok cartoon, pagi, siang malam....cartoon.Kesian jugak.Today, before my sleeping session...we coloured some drawings...lepas to mama dia TIDUR.To be honest, the ubat that Dr. H bagi memang untuk rest..asyik rasa mengantuk.And I refused to pikir pasal work today...Monday, asyik tanya office okay ke..tu dah buat ke, ni dah siap ke? meeting blah blah boleh orang lain ganti ke?...yesterday called up office a couple of times since I had to relate back a few matters based on the calls that I received on my hp... hmm, hp personal tapi calls tak personal...So, my mission for today was I JUST DO NOT WANT TO THINK OF ANYTHING except rest.Answer calls while awake only. Reply smses that was necessary only...Was my mission accomplished? Partly....
It was something like a burnt toast,the bread is toasted but with a bit of bitter burnt taste...just scrapped the burnt bits, spread more butter and jam...it's not perfect but just fine.