Phew!Three weeks have passed in blurry state...I'm free at last from my PTK.....samada pass or not that will be another matter. We were given 2 weeks to prepare for the individual presentation. That took a lot of my time....finding the materials, reading and sorting them out....ugh! It was terrible.... public speaking, only lasted for 10 minutes...tapi kena cari materials jugak, hubby was a real gem, he helped a lot, infact he came up with the first draft...we threw ideas together and some how I managed to persuade him to prepare the draft...
Exams ?! If I could kick myself at the ass I would do so, haiya, rasa so menyesal sangat-sangat, .....dah lah tulis macam orang gila, felt so stupid for answering questions that was not comfortable with....Ahhhh, double ahhh.
The whole week, actually it was 9 days (minus registration)rasa kepala heavy aje, rasa macam kepala nak pecah, I had so many things to juggle with the preparation of PTK, before that, I had kerja yang bertindan on the table yang perlu dihabis, research untuk kurikulum kursus kena buat,....my family took a back seat. Kesian the girls...I was away from them, off and on. I cant recall how many hours I spend on reading material on global warming...I think I can safely say that I have become more global concious...hubby was really understanding. He made the effort of being home at least my 8 plus for the girls and for TH to have some adult company for dinner...
I was having a big dose of nervous gila for my presentation...I was so afraid that I did not answer the question properly, in my little mind, I had the scenario of the whole panel bombarding with me questions and saying that I have gone off the track....seriously....it became a daily nightmare features for a couple of days....I was so paranoid about it sampai I made hubby promised to me that he would be back early on tuesday night, jangan fixed any meeting, jangan buat kerja lebih, so that I could do my mock presention and he would ask questions, pretending to be the panel....tapi malam tu, both slept early with adik still awake, shaking me a few times to change the channel...in my mind, I said tak apa, baru pukul 10 lebih ada time lagi, nanti bangun, boleh practice......ya....practise, hmm, at 5 am I woke up like a headless chicken, the feeling of panic crept in, ahhh...tak jaga semalam, didnt practice my presentation....ahhh, help, ..so,did my isyak prayer, that helped to calmed me ...woke up hubby, buka computer....hubby dengan muka mengantuk, duduk kat lantai tepi katil dengar I dok bercakap dalam orang putih....adik terjaga, tengok mak dia berdiri dengan tangan goin every where....with a sleepy ayah on the lantai......., anyway abang thanks for all the help and support..., you really pulled me up when I was down.....THANKS...I really adore you.
Bila, dah habis buat presentation rasa lega sangat sangat....didnt want to think about the exams, biar aje...kalau ada rezeki, ada la, dont want it to spoilt my life thinnking about it for the next couple of months....hmm, tapi written assignment kena hantar juga....aghhh...belum habis lagi derita..heheheh.
On, the last day of PTK, I dah plan nak berseronok sikit with friends infact had blesssing from hubby to balik lewat sikit, but alas, was called up by the boss.....hmmm, so it was back to work....orang lain, masih atas katil feeling deliriously happy.....I was back at work.....work was waiting for me....argh.......
Apa-apa pun, I will miss the company of my dear Sue (my roomate), Tulip, Sal, Syed, Atok and the rest....you guys made it less painful....hehehhe.
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