Butterflies, hands and bears...

So, do you like my new blog page or whatever you called it in IT slang ...heheh. It was created by Syu, my lovely niece...it seems that I owe her a Nintendo game for it, hmm...I think she is more kaya than me...she can bloody well afford it on her own...heheheh.

I dont know what the hands and the butterflies signifies...Syu said, the left side was pretty empty...so that was the reason of having butterflies and hands...haiya, she could have at least tipu me by saying that it signifies something worthy. So, I said maybe it signifies me with my kids & hubby....boleh lah tu.

I love my gambar(s).....cute kan. That was me at the age of 3 or 4 years old. Adik Sofia thinks the gambar yang pegang bunga ros tu dia...and she went on to describe what "she" wore....okaylah, maybe ada some similarities...especially, the sepet eyes....I did look kinda of Chinese masa kecik-kecik dulu.

Gambar yang tengah bercakap kat telefon tu pulak , I was holding my favourite bear...I don't what happened to it, but I know I am married to one now. The bear I was holding was pretty tame and cuddly....the BEAR that I have now can be quite frisky and naughty....heheheh. I don't know whether bears by nature smoke but mine does like a chimney....24/7.

Anyway Syu, thanks a million for the new face lift, I love it especially the arrangement of the pics but I want back my titles.....

Muah, muah, muah !

I got my wish today....yeyeye...I watched a movie this morning. The notion of going off to the cinema on my own to watch a movie was playing on my mind...on and on ...like a broken record player. Well, I put my plans into action this morning. Got up early as usual, but this morning I went out to buy breakfast for Tam and her family. Tam came over on Friday, spend a night over, she planned to go down to Seremban to visit Siti Sara.

So, off I went in the morning with hubby and adik in tow to buy kueh and roti canai. We had a cup of hot drinks each minus adik, she had ice tea (hubby's choice)(in the morning!!!! agh!) while waiting for the roti canai.

Tam took mum along, it was very kind of her...mum needs to get away from the kids anyway..heheh. Since mum was with Tam, I didnt feel guilty at all, the idea of treating myself to a movie was so delicious. I was salivating. So, I tried to sell the idea of watching a movie to hubby....said there was a movie I was kinda eager to see...told him the movie was at 11.15am...enough time for him and the kids to do our weekly shopping for groceries at Tesco and would meet them for lunch. So, hubby, said yeah...told the kids to have their bath...pronto...before hubby changes his mind...hehehe.

Anyway, to cut it short, we went out too early, I was at the cinema about 1 hour before show time....the shopping complex was kinda empty, tenants baru nak buka kedai. I waited patiently...making my observations on the surroundings... and on the couples around me....bought myself a box of regular popcorns...stuffed my face with it while waiting patiently...texted Syu and Amal about my visit to the cinema.....heheh, felt kinda of good although said I will be thinking of Amal while watching the movie nanti.

I was the first to masuk the panggung, sat there alone for about 15 minutes before the rest trickled in....since it was a chic flick, I didnt expect any guys, well minus the couples la, but to my amazement there was these three guys ( they look kinda of regular not the lembut-lembut kind) sat a row infront of me watching BRIDE WARS....cool, they must be really be - i. into romantic comedies, ii.were sent by their girlfriends to be more sensitive with their (the girlfriends la) needs, iii.they are into Kate Hudson and Anne Hathaway or iv. there was nothing better to watch.

Anyway, I am glad hubby gave a couple of hours time off from the girls and some ME TIME. Enjoyed the movie although it was so-so for me. To hubby, MUAH MUAH MUAH !

Jangan tarik muka....

Am looking forward to watching a movie this weekend. Lama sangat tak tengok movie.I hope my wish will materialise. Its so difficult to escape for a few hours from the kids, unless of course if I am at work...hmm, maybe I should just say to the kids that mama is working this weekend. For the past 2 weekends, I have in fact been working.....ahh...I need to rest then.

Had cuti last Monday, ingatkan boleh lah tengok wayang, but felt kinda guilty cos mak is with me, tak sampai hati nak disappear for a few hours pulak....lagipun adik pulak came down with a nasty cold ...courtesy from the mama...so brought her to the clinic....ambik ubat, lepas tu pi One U. Ingatkan nak beli payung aje... she has been bugging me to buy payung....kawan dia ada payung barbie....hmm, pi Toys'rus...tak ada pulak tapi adik "paued" mama bagus punya....macam barang-barang beli....she knew how to play on my guilt spot....

Lepas beli toys, pi beli pulak baju untuk kakak and adik...tengah sale (perpetually on sale)...berbaloi lah jugak....I got myself 2 tops...bolehlah...adik suruh beli something untuk ayah, adik ni selalu ingat kat orang lain, hmm must let her go shopping alone with ayah, maybe ayah will buy something for mama then.

Balik rumah, kakak dah balik from school, apa lagi tarik muka la. Mujur tok tak tarik muka....hehehe.

So, lets hope weekend ni, the girls and Tok Hajah tak tarik muka kalau mama keluar tengok wayang...hehehe

Adik tengok kartun....,

Am on my bed at the moment,was trying hard to sleep cos masih demam but couldnt of course...adik watched a barbie movie, minta air sirap and macam-macam lagi.The other half enjoyed his evening siesta, hmm...jealous jugak.So,went down to cook fish curry for dinner...fried mee maggie for adik (I know its not good for her),naik balik ke bilik, baru nak rest balik, adik nak mandi pulak, nak mandi dulu sebelum makan...lepas dia complaint pulak "adik tak sihat".I think she was telling the truth cos I caught my flu from the office and since adik mesti tidur berkepit, mesti dah berjangkit.So, ayah bawak dia turun pulak...ayah dah bangun untuk his asar prayer...nak bagi adik panadol.

Although I couldnt rest today, I am feeling much better than yesterday.Semalam,I was on public service duty at Central Market....letih jugak, infact I came much earlier than my staff and set the booth by myself.Although the respond was just moderate but it was quite an eye opener,seronok jugak tengok kerenah orang...macam-macam gaya ada kat CM.I dapat jugak bersembang dengan a person by the name of Pak Shuib...interesting personality.I need to be aware of what is happening around me.Ada jugak yang datang ke booth tu tanya about non-legal matters but it was okay, dapat lah jugak bercakap dengan pelbagai jenis orang.Throughout the whole day I was there, my head was pounding hard,my mouth was dry, asyik minum air aje...of course I was sniffling anhd sneezing...my eyes were watery, I gueesed I was not a pretty sight for the public. But I am proud of myself for not giving up...infact I didnt take a lunch break but gave my officers time off for lunch...hmm, they took their sweet time of course but brought back a loaf of sweet bread...(a big loaf), didnt feel much like eating, tapi makan jugak sikit cos takut masuk angin. Lepas tu, jumpa some I know, hmm my former student, he now a lecturer at Law Faculty...offered him some bread and assam, tanya about UiTM...gossip a bit...it was nice to go down the memory lane, even though for a short while..

Anyway, bila balik rumah, couldnt sleep, the head was pounding, mak was at home with me, so tak boleh lah terus tidur.Dinner lauk yang dipanaskan from lunch..ayah bought macam-macam lauk for lunch, penuh meja...I had only a mug of hot milo with 2 pieces of bread,cakap-cakap sikit with mum, lepas tu makan ubat and TIDUR.

This morning,as usual adik got up very early, she had the tv on, cartoons can be quite irritating in the wee hours of the morning....4 am to be precised.It was losing battle to continue sleeping....so bangun awal cos adik tengok kartun.

I am listening...

This is not my new year's resolution...it just plain sense and me trying to be a better person and mum. I am trying to listen better. Why listening eh? Well, I feel that there is "sense" of hearing but not listening when it comes to my eldest daughter.Kesian kat kakak, she talks more to her ayah, cos he is her best buddy....bila dia nak bercakap or bercerita with mama, adik selalu kacau, adik will interrupt as I am listening to her sister with her own stories.So, poor kakak. So, now onwards, I would not allow words to be just words, I want it to be a communication.I want to listen more.

Now, how I wish this applies to the people around me too.At the office, I still have problem with certain people...minta buat research dah lebih 2 minggu...tapi tak sampai pun to my table...hmm, tak kan tak faham apa I cakap....my instinct says to do it myself....ya, memang that's my work attitude pun , just do it yourself if you want fast results, tapi ni susah sikit, I know nuts about Islamic law, so I have asked my syariah officer untuk buat kerja sikit....hmmm, it would take a lot of time for me to do my own research on a particular matter and time is definitely against it...nak prepare submission on a subject that needs fast understanding and in depth knowledge is beyond me at this point.

So, back to my desire to listen more to my closest and dearest, I hope they feel the same.Mak is with me at the moment. Was told by my sisters that she is suffering from depression....on that note, she seems to be disturbed with the notion that all her jewelleries hilang kat Alor Setar, about how valuable things tak boleh disimpan kat sana. She is also is upset about certain things and keep on repeating about it...my thoughts on this, is that all these are making her feeling depressed.It is sad to note that she wakes up in the morning with all "these complications" and its a rerun scenario of her life everyday.Everyday.

I am listening.....

What a weekend.....

Hmm,what a weekend it was....we went to Cherating for a family gathering...we were the first to arrived at kak dah's place in kuantan...yang lain tak sampai lagi walaupun we took the wrong route..Kak Dah served us nasi lemak with ayam goreng and rendang daging..sedap...Zubir dengan tak rasa malu kata he will continue makan nanti bila the rest sampai...besides nasi lemak, we had lepat pisang and mandarin oranges..kenyang jugak lah. Anyway, tunggu punya tunggu,the rest came in batches,amal and kids, Tizah with her family,abang dengan kak zai, baru lah kak chick sampai dengan abang chick....during that waiting period,zubir and I sempat tidur...letih punya pasal.Oh ya,sempat jugak pi beli pisang goreng...hajat nak makan satar tapi tak jumpa...so makan goreng pisang aje with karipap..boleh lah tu....

We took off to Cherating, sampai dah maghrib...the kids were so eager to play with the sand, semua lari main kat pantai....tengah nak gelap tu boleh main pasir...I was quite worried jugak...I teringat orang tua-tua kata, tak elok main kat luar masa waktu maghrib...especially kat pantai pulak tu, lagilah double the paranoid.

I couldnt relax and let my hair down (literally of course)since I had to be back in KL the next day....rasa tak syok kena kerja on a sunday,especially this particular sunday.Terpaksa supervise a booth...dont ask untuk apa, Zubir pun was quite dissapointed cos dia ingatkan boleh rest and jalan-jalan kat cherating...well,let me say this, if I tak balik ke KL on sunday, it would appear that I was taking advantage of my officers,both of them had to sacrife their weekend too, it would be most unappropriate for the boss to go AWOL...thats not my style.

Anyway, malam tu, we have some slides show of the Aisyah's wedding....then the karoake session...I sat beside mak on the bed,she was saying its not apporiate to sing, ada orang nak solat (no one was praying at that time)...she was quietly dok mengucap and berisghtifar...hmm,I pun terpaksa tengok aje...lepas the rest lepas gian menyanyi...it was off to dinner....now dinner was kinda of late...about 10+pm...budak-budak dah mengantuk,I pun dah letih, nyamuk pun sedap dok menghisap darah...so lepas makan nasi goreng and ikan bakar,tak sempat makan yang lain, I balik ke bilik with Kak Mah, Tizah and my kids...ingatkan boleh tidur...hemm, ada session tangkap lipas pulak...before dinner we had some screaming session with flying lipas...and Kak Mah peed in her pants....heheheh.

So, the next day,I woke adik from her sleep so that she can play on the beach before we head back to KL...so, kakak and adik dapat lah main-main sikit on the beach although they couldnt mandi...the waters tak berapa sesuai untuk mandi. The beach pun bukan landai,it was quite beralun, didnt feel too comfortable about it...

Anyway,all of us dapat some goodies from kak Chick....the sisters dapat beg...cantik in three different shades, the kids dapat pouch with sequinned hairbands....my kids seronok melaram.Kak Dah pun ada bagi goodie bags before we left for Cherating...filled with keropok and buah mandarin oranges.

Back at home,I had a small makan-makan, tahlil and doa selamat on Kak Chick's suggestion on Monday.Was not too happy with the choices of food, could have done a lot better kalau I had more time. Kalau ada masa and if it was not a long holiday due to CNY, I would have catered the makan-makan with something much more heavier.Well, there will be other occasions or excuses to makan-makan.Anyway Kak and family couldnt made it to my place...Syu had an operation and baru discharged that afternoon....so the mood was just not perfect without them.

Year 2009, changes & surprise me, Syu...

A lot has happened since the last jottings.....the renovations are nearly 95% completed.Kakak is back to school....Adik has a new haircut which is quite pixie looking. She calls herself Farhana, after her cousin...not realising that we were referring her as Rihanna as in..."umbrella....ella..".

Anyway,I am looking forward to a better year in 2009...year 2008 was quite eventful, there were some dramas at office...heheheh...I am learning new things at my new office, well, not so quite new la, have been here since September 2008...People factor is quite a major part in my life at the moment. Banyak problems at work with certain staff and officer...tapi kerja mana yang senang. I guess you have to be thankful with what you have...I have learnt that kita tak boleh sangat berlembut, cos they are going to step on you head so, I am going to be a little bit tegas but at the same time approachable.....hmm, boleh ke?

Am making some changes at home....will try to be a better mum by listening more to my kids especially kakak....like they say, you are hearing but not listening. Well, its quite difficult to do so since both nak bercakap at the same time...adik will not give way to kakak and kakak will get upset....mum, will eventually get upset and irritated with the whole scenario bila ada yang menangis pasal bergaduh-gaduh....kadang-kadang nak bercakap with ayah pun susah...kita nak bercakap they will interupt...and ayah bila dah baca newspaper, susah pulak nak dengar....aaahh..sometimes I will say ridiculous things like....the cow jump over the fence, or dinding kata jom pi " just to see whether the ayah is listening....somehow macam mana tak tahu lah, he will always repeat what I have said...together with the silly stuff that I have said earlier....hmm, tajam jugak his hearing. Although I can say the same about his eyesight, baca paper...tu sedepa depan mata....hmm, tapi tak mau check his visions....

Since I am making some changes in work, lifestyle, etc....my blog pun kena la revamp sikit. I have asked Syu to do her wonders.....full trust on her judgements...but just to be on the safe side, I want to retain purple as my background with whites...I have asked her to create somethings that screams ME.....but not too obvious of course. I want it to be sweet....ada bunga-bunga sikit...something soothing, something that reflect my personality,hmnn wonder whether that is possible....hehehe, banyak pulak syarat....oh ya, the title should remain...tapi kena pilih font yang lebih attractive.....I came up with picture of cupcake which has the features of alien...cos during meetings dulu, bila dapat cupcakes, kalau I dapat something yang looks odd or cute, I will take a pic...hehehe....meetings can be so BORING.So, Syu..do your magic..surprise me eh!