one step at a time

Had a wake up call recently. Should I cry over it, sleep over it, be very upset or just embrace it. I have opted to embrace it. Lets hope I will have the strenght to overcome the huddle. Thanks hubby for being someone that I can depend on. Muah muah muah.

boo hoo.....

Am feeling lousy. Had a check up on friday. Down with fever and flu. Did a bmi calculation out of curiosity. Physically i am 66 years old. Boo hoo. I have only myself to blame for this.  Boo hoo. This is a harsh wake up call.

I wish hubby will stop giving surprises in the negative form. Feeling sad . And honestly tired. I am no longer in the upset mode just plain tired.

Less drama

Weekends are not meant for resting. Like any other day, its entwined with more moments, episodes and dramas... Tuition, drama & speech and art classes, buying groceries, servicing the car, bits of office work...I was up to my elbows, trying to manoeuvre through all the 'dramas'. One good thing both hubby and I managed to get a 20 minutes interval for US time. We had a good heart to heart talk in the car while waiting for kakak.

Trying to ask hubby to open up is not an easy task. He has his pride. One lesson I have learnt is if open your heart..look for the beauty around you and others and most of all in yourself.

Then, there will be less dramas in our lives.

one at a time

Oops! Aha...taking one moment at a time. Small baby steps...looking forward to some changes..will try not to disappoint myself...Insyaallah. amin

Not yet.

Nothing is really over until you stop trying. So, its ain't over.

Promise, Accept, Change

Its the 3rd of January 2011 today. I have made some new year resolutions, some are promises to myself that I have made during the year of 2010 and some are just repeated resolutions. One that I am trying hard to keep is losing the loads of extra weights. Another that is close to my heart is to speak less. I am trying hard to speak less. I believe verbosity is a vice and a burden. Sometimes an intention will be read or heard in negative manner. I have had enough of trying to understand people. I have had enough of leasing parts of my mind, worrying about others...then to be hurt in returned. Enough is Enough.

Nevertheless, I will listen more of my girls. Hubby and my girls would be my priority.

So do not expect an answer to every questions, not all quips will be responded...it may appear that I have distanced myself from others, but that is so far from the truth... the truth is, its the only way to stop any alienation of feelings. The beauty of life is that it is full of contradictions.

ACCEPT WHAT YOU MUST, CHANGE WHAT YOU CAN.