Unacceptable

It does not matter if this does not make sense. I do not owe anyone any apologies neither should I let it go by without acknowledging my frustrations. I had a horrible day today. I do not know where to start. I am so pissed off with the lack of RESPECT of certain so called professionals.I am just doing what has been amanah to me. I do not want to be MISS POPULAR.I just want to do my job.If certain people, tak faham-faham jugak. Tak tau lah nak buat apa.I have learnt the hard way through the years, that you cannot be politically correct and sugar coat your words all the time. You cant be saying things of what they only want to hear.I can be sensitive to the needs and the feelings of family and friends but I can not tolerate RUDENESS.Today, I had a group of hostile people to begin with. The moment I entered the room, I could sense the negative feelings. I knew it was a losing battle...but I did not want to put up the white flag or to go to war without a fight. The real truth was, there should not have been a war on the first instance.What these people fail to realised that I am here to help them, to assist them, to facilitate for them....but what can you say or do when you know that there was a "closure"...I was basically trying hard to maintain a sense of objectiveness, a sense of respect for the rest, biting my tongue from saying anything disrespectful, but alas it appears that I was the only one trying hard to be sensible. Does this appear to be one sided babbling and muttering...I don't think so. I can't reveal much without revealing all.My work ethics does not permit me to do so. Will I regret anything said or done. To be honest I don't know. All I know for sure is you cannot let anyone think you are a lesser person from them. I stand by my principles, and that I am proud of.

I don't know...

Had a dream. It was weird and confusing.Should I be concerned about it.Is my subconscious telling me something. I don't know.

Maybe...

Watched a movie on the vcd. Am so confused.It was supposed to a romantic comedy.Am left baffled with the story line.I was lost a couple of times during the movie. Three guinea pigs agents was much more interesting. Hmm...could it be at the back of my mind, I have some office matters to settle...and it has distracted my flow of thoughts...hmm, maybe.

Oh dear!

Hmm,today bertambah grey hairs, but I don't think it's making me more mature.Had errants to run today. First, it was a trip to Menara Celcom untuk dapatkan refund. Hmm, my hair started to grey from there, this young lady didnt give me chance to explain about the cheque, instead she started to tap on the keyboard without asking for further info...hmm, told me to wait for a moment, masuk ke dalam, something about checking with the finance section, came out later, kata, no one at finance...maybe masih bercuti, lepas tu kata, cheque masih valid. DUH! Yang tu, I pun tau.That was not the reason I came over....anyway to make the long story short...CELCOM akan bagi cheque baru atas nama I nanti.Lepas tu,pi makan capati for breakfast with hubby kat Jalan TAR. No grey hairs there.

Next stop was KAMDAR, hubby singgah nak beli seluar.I bought myself 2 t-shirts lengan panjang.Boleh la nak pakai ke kedai ke.Sementara, hubby tunggu seluar tengah potong...I ternampak kedai emas dalam Kamdar. Tanya boleh tak repair hook necklace...boleh, only setengah jam....hmm, ya, more like 1 1/2 jam lebih.Yang tak bestnye, dia duk layan this couple....lama lah jugak.....geramnye. Alahai....dia lah owner, jurujual and tukang emas...all rolled into one.That episode left me with a cekak of grey hairs.By the way, sorry kak kena tempias tadi...

I am greying...

Frustration and annoyance feelings are not to be taken lightly. Am I frustrated or annoyed? Could be. Should I let it consume me. NO.It's just one of those bumps in a journey called life. What's life without some bumps along the way.Life is after all not all rainbows and roses...it's not black and white either...it has some grey areas. And greys usually present signs of maturity...if that's the case...I am slowly maturing into a better person.

New toy,old girl..

Hubby is distracted. Very distracted. Not paying much attention to me.He is besotted with something new.Shiny.Sleek.She moves fast too.He has a new love.He has a new toy.So far he has taken his girls for rides except for this girl.Well, this old girl has a lot more mileage to go too.On the other hand, this old girl enjoys a certain amount of ME TIME too!

The ugly truth

Had this conversation with hubby the other day..its about the "Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde" personality in bosses.Am very much aware of this. In fact had a boss with this split personality.I have to admit, to some extent, I too have that personality. Well, more of a chameleon.This is not hypocrisy but plain truth. The Ugly Truth.

What is ugly may not be the truth.And what is truth may not be ugly.So, should the truth be ugly? Why the ugly truth? (is this confusing?) So,take this:

Truth- I can be quite garang with the kids. Ugly- can be quite lazy at times.
Truth-love a good book, anytime. Ugly- love chocolates, all the time.
Truth-hates when hubby smokes. Ugly- the sight of my flabs.
Truth-hubby loves my p..(PG 18)....with all the ugliness...hahahah!

We live in this world, where people are eager to know your weaknesses,enjoys listening to gossips,strive on your stupidity...should I go on.

But to me, at the end of the day, just be yourself.There are ugliness in all of us. To me that's the PLAIN TRUTH.

p.s by way watched The Ugly Truth on my own.As usual.

just around the corner

Raya preparation? For the kids, dah beli baju sebulan lepas.Untuk rumah? Maybe nak beli curtains.For myself, hmm, belum fikir anything lagi. For hubby, hmm, beli lah sendiri...hehhehe. Tahun ni tak ada bonus...sobs!sobs!
Untuk adik yang asyik bertanya....raya belum lagi.Nanti...besok,besok,besok...untuk kakak, perut dah turun sikit...ayah, hmm,bila lagi nak berhenti merokok.......for myself....maybe a couple of new books will make me happy.Or maybe a movie will do the trick.

On the wheels

Am fustrated.Very frustrated.Tired.Just plain tired.Feel like a hamster on the wheels. Turning round and round. Need a break.Need new energy.HELP!!!!!!!!